I'm fraudulent, a thief at best, a coward who paints a bulls*** canvas

So lately I've been trying to deal with some problems, issues, and deficiencies on my part.

i feel like i'm fading but that i'm growing stronger at the same time. its a hard concept to grasp, i know. but after all these years of being so selfish and impatient and prideful, i finally want to tear that all down. i want to, but i'm having a difficult time getting past the roadblocks in my heart.

so i'll send up a prayer in hopes that God will get me there
and i'll stop painting bulls*** and learn to paint me
even though what i have to put down isn't all that wonderful
i don't want to be fake anymore


aaand here is Sunday's version of my outfits -- church clothes. :)