california dreamin'

Oh hai!

So today i am studying up in my room -- reading more Kant and wasting away as we speak. Actually, quite the opposite, but it is kinda boring to be up here reading Kant when there is a party going on downstairs (for my brothers' graduation... a collection of his friends are here from middle school timez). But I am upstairs, wishing to get out of this tower and reach the world again someday. Hopefully by this time next week I will be completely done with my work and be able to socialize like a normal 21-year-old.

so i'm stuck in my room, and i'm daydreaming, and sometimes that turns into real dreaming. Like last night i dreamt that my brother was engaged. And that he was Mormon. or something like that. so strange.

so i thought about futures... and things to come and the reality that is going on around me. my life is changing -- my brothers' as well. i'm gonna miss him, little bugger. i mean i miss him already as it is, but this is it, really. this is the last chance i have while we're this young to be close. cuz after this, who knows when i'm coming home... who knows what he'll be like once he heads of to college. I dunno.

I guess I've gotta embrace this.

*sigh*

oh, random addendum!

i would also appreciate some suggestions on shoes--

I have a 20% off coupon for Famous Footwear so I have a nice little selection of ones that i really like. Please comment about which is your favorite to help me decide!!!

hot kiss women's rumor

natural soul by naturalizer women's haver

bc footwear women's trolley

steve madden women's stomp

ciao women's pause

every missing piece of me i can find in a melody

today is a good day. i finished Razor last night so i am looking forward to maybe watching a few episodes of Season 3 this weekend. :)
p.s. this weekend is going to ROCK -- thrifting today, vintage tomorrow, photoshoot on Sunday. awesommmme.

i had the most wonderful dream last night that not only did i get to meet Tavi, we lived close to each other and we hung out together all the time. goodness. if only that were true! XD
i woke up and i was so upset that my dreamworld was not real.

I went to a different area of Schenley Park today for photos. It is really beautiful. I'm upset at myself for not going there more often and sooner.

My outfit today was inspired in bits and pieces by a 60's flair. but i changed once i got back to my room because i got a package with the most adorable blue dress -- pics to come later. ^_^







plaid rainbow minidress - handmade vintage, navy tights, red leggings - Sidecca, white sneakers - Cheng's, oval drop necklace - gift, red headband - Goody, leaf cuff bracelet - Forever 21

how you exist when you're living in a dreamworld

i leave in about an hour and a half! i am so excited, but last night i had quite a spell of falling apart. Considering that i haven't done much of that in a while, it surprised me, but I think it was good for me to get it out. i am both extremely excited and a bit terrified of going back to a place that holds so many memories for me. but considering that right now i feel like i'm caught in a melancholy stagnancy, almost like i'm living in a dream. i want to get out of it and get back to reality, get back to daily living and being able to grow and change. at home i just don't feel like i have that opportunity so much. so in that respect, i cannot wait to get back to Pittsburgh. i can't wait to get back to real life. don't get me wrong -- i will miss my family terribly, and i love them more than anything -- but right now at this point, i need friends.

so i begin the journey today, taking my step out of the awkward in-between.

"ready to go"


"DEJALO!"